There are times when everything hurts and you just want a moment of peace. Eyes fill with tears for no apparent reason and everything’s a trigger. You sit among the people you love, yet you hope they don’t see you, don’t come close to you and say hi, but they do and you put on this brave face and smile but that too just falters.
You come home, you get under the blanket and you cry. People come in to see you, ask you what’s wrong but you just say you’re not well. They remind you of your responsibilities but you just don’t have the energy. Guilt sets in and everything spins out of control so you do what you need to do; you harm yourself and let physical pain take away your emotional pain just to gain what you crave; one moment of peace.