Every part of me hurts.  The cold just makes it a thousand times worse. Aching bones and joints just make me want to cry. Strained muscles with an emotional overload just leaves me shattered. How strange that I self harm to avoid the emotional overload but I couldn’t handle the pain that comes naturally with being depressed.

Shutting everything out, locking myself up in a room, enjoy a cup of coffee and do nothing seems like a nice thing to do right now, but I’m sure I’ll regret it when the caffeine spikes up my level of anxiety. No matter what I do, I would still end up in misery and that hurts- emotionally and physically. I couldn’t focus on anything but the fact that I am in pain and no one gets it.